Please pray for me concerning rest. This is the third night that I have been unable to sleep which might explain why I’m posting this at 1:30 in the morning…..I’ve only gotten a few hours of sleep per night, and it’s pretty discouraging especially when I feel so tired physically. I have no idea what the cause is, because I’m not taking any medicine anymore and I thought I was doing a lot better. Thank you for your prayers…..
I’m doing a lot better physically. Yes there is still soreness and it will be awhile before I have the energy I used to have, but after two surgeries in the past three months, I feel much better than I ever anticipated I would….God is truly good!
It’s so interetsing to me that during the hard times in life we learn the most about ourselves and Christ….at least in my opinion. I’ve learned that I’m incredibly selfish in so many ways…..I’ve learned that I take countless things for granted…..I’ve learned that God speaks to me all the time, but there are so many times I haven’t been listening. Concerning Christ I’ve learned that it’s all about Him and will always be all about Him…..I’ve learned that He’s blessed me beyond measure and He hasn’t kept a record of just how many of His blessings I’ve taken for granted because of His amazing forgiveness……the biggest thing I’ve learned is that God takes us through hard times because He loves us and He will do whatever He needs to do in order for us as His children to understand that. Let’s just say that this has been a very educational few months 
I say all this to say that I want to be a God pleaser. I want to get to the point that I do not fear what people think of me….my biggest concern needs to be what my Heavenly Father thinks of me. I watched “Amazing Grace” tonight, and it showed me yet again what Christ will do through someone that will give their all to Him and hold nothing back, no matter what people may think. After the movie I stopped and thought how incredibly different our world would be if we as God’s children would completely surrender to Him and allow Him to use us however He chooses not allowing anything to hold us back no matter what! Honestly I’ve somewhat had the attitude before that no matter what I do, our world is not going to get better…just worse. Anything I do won’t really make a difference, right? I’m pretty ashamed that I’ve had that attitude….God hasn’t given up on our world…..He proved that to us when He sent His only Son to die on a cross for us…you and me. So why do so many seem to live like they have a similar attitude as mine has been?
I want to make a difference….how? Well that is up to God. My decision is deciding that however, whenever, whatever, and wherever is completely His decision. The reason I belive I was born was to praise God…and the main way I can praise my Jesus is with my life. It’s about time I start truly living that way!
Thanks so much for praying! I’m definitely feeling better! Still sore but the pain is bearable now, especially with the help of some medicine! I’m glad the surgery is behind me!!! Both surgeries that is! :) I’ve only been able to eat jell-o, applesauce, mashed potatoes, and yogart so far, but hopefully in the next few days I’ll get to expand my options of food!
Hope you all have a wonderful July 4th today…..Eddie and I are staying at home today, but it’s already been a great day…..Eddie is taking good care of me…in fact, he brought me a yellow rose to make me feel better….I’m very blessed with a wonderful family!!! God is so good!
Martha Marie is in terrible pain even though she is on pain narcotics. We feel the hospital may have released her too soon. Please pray that her pain would cease and that she would be able to stay peaceful.
We checked in this morning at 6:30. They started the procedure at 8 a.m. The procedure was over at 8:30 a.m. We left the hospital around 12:15 p.m.
So sorry it’s been so long since I last updated all of you. A lot has been going on, and this site has been difficult to log on to, so that’s not helped either.
I went over a week ago to Atlanta and was completely released by Dr Barrow…he said I was healed and should consider myself a free woman! It was a great day!!!! I can not begin to tell you how thankful I was to hear those words…..God definitely worked a miracle!!! Of course I’m still not up to full energy, and I’m not expecting to for some time, but I’ll get there eventually!! Thankfully I don’t have many complications from my surgery except getting a little dizzy every now and then…..I do have some weird feelings at times where my incision is healing up as well but the nurse said that was normal and to be expected.
On the other side of things, I have my gallbladder removed on Wednesday…..I’m not looking forward to it, but so many people have said that it will be a piece of cake compared to brain surgery…..if that’s the case, then I think I can handle that :) My doctor for this coming surgery said that it will deplete me of energy quite a bit, and it’ll take me a little longer to recover then most, but it shouldn’t be so bad. For some reason I’m nervous about being put to sleep this time around….I have no idea why though especially considering the fact that I wasn’t nervous at all about that part with the brain surgery. Would you guys mind praying specifically for me concerning that? I don’t know if it’s the fact that it’s not been long since my last surgery??? Anyway I would appreciate prayer for that….I just want to have a peace about it, and I’m not there yet….
I’m so thankful for such dear friends as all of you…..honestly Eddie and I and our family wouldn’t have made it through this like we have without all the love and support you’ve given us! You all have been wonderful! Thank you for your continued prayers….the last few months have left us worn out in so many ways, and I think we as a family are trying to figure out what normal is for us all over again. God has and continues to be so incredibly faithful though…..what a friend we have in Jesus!
Ok…so first I have brain surgery…..and what’s next?? My gallbladder has to be removed. And no…I am NOT kidding.
It’s almost funny….I mean seriously when I found out that I had gallstones and needed to find a surgeon I pretty much laughed. You either laugh or cry and I’ve had my season of crying! So….once again…I am asking for prayer. Thankfully removing a gallbladder is not nearly as complicated as brain surgery so that’s a blessing! I’m just not looking forward to another surgery….especially less than two to three months since my first surgery.
So…what in the world is God doing??? I’m kind of asking that myself. I’ve given up trying to understand a long time ago. I know that His thoughts and ways make so much more sense even if I can’t understand them…so once again I just need to trust Him, and hope and pray and hope and pray some more that this will be the end of my health issues…..I really want to run a triatholon but have no idea how I’m going to do that if I have to keep having things taken out of my body :)
I guess this is the season of our need of prayers….I hope this season ends soon to be honest. But…maybe God is trying to develop perseverance in us…or maybe it’s endurance….or maybe He is still trying to get us to the point of completely trusting Him??? Your guess is as good as mine…..I do know that whatever the reason is it is a good one, and He does have our best interest in mind. Because of that simple fact I’m ok with this new turn of events. God always knows exactly what He’s doing even if I don’t and that’s all that truly matters.
I read this today and it is so very true! The Lord has shown this in action to Eddie and I repeatedly these past few months. I just felt to share for anyone who might need to hear this today….
“The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all” Psalm 34:17-19
I’ve had the opportunity to spend this week at the beach, and it has been wonderful! I agree with the doctor…it makes recovery so much better when you get to spend it at a place like the beach
My incision is looking so much better……and I’m getting more energy every day! I’m still not 100% and it will probably take a few months before I’m there, but I can tell a HUGE difference between a couple of weeks ago and now!
God is the Ultimate Healer and I’m so thankful for the work that He’s done in my life. I had the opportunity to celebrate Selah’s 2 year old birthday with our family in NC…I had the opportunity to watch our kids experience the beach for the first time….I had the opportunity to see the ocean today and celebrate God’s amazing power that He could create something so wonderful…..if God was not the Ultimate Healer I would not have had those opportunities! Wow..I am blessed….my God is good…ALL THE TIME!
I pray that I will always be thankful for the little things in my life as well as the big. The next time you see an amazing sunset, or somebody sends you an encouraging card, or you get a hug or kiss from someone you love, or even waking up to enjoy a new day…consider yourself blessed……thank you Jesus for being so good and for blessing us even when we are completely undeserving of it!
It has been an eventful last few days. Our little boy who had a fever is all better now, and today our little girl caught it. Never a dull moment in our family :)
I’ve done a lot of thinking about spiritual warfare lately. I’m so tired of Satan seeming to get the upper hand so many times and I’ve been asking myself what can I do about it if anything? I felt God really spoke to me about this….and it definitely humbled me. The question that I felt He brought to my mind is how much do we as a family pray? How much do we pray for the protection of our family….emotionally, physically, spiritually, mentally? How important do we view the power of prayer?
Well, honestly I have to admit that by our actions it doesn’t seem we view it as very important from the lack of time we spend praying. I have always been very verbal about how I feel about prayer….my mom is a prayer warrior and talk about an awesome example she set for me, but how well have I followed it? Yes, I pray a lot throughout the day on my own as God brings different things to my mind, but as far as Eddie and I as a couple….well maybe a total of five minutes…maybe. Yes, I am ashamed to admit this…..it’s great that Eddie and I pray individually, but we have to remember that God said in His word “where two or three are gathered together in His name there will He be also.” So…prayer is getting ready to take a whole new meaning in our family. Before when Eddie wanted us to start a time of prayer in our family I willing agreed, but when it was time to do it I would tell him that we could do it after a certain tv show went off or after I called someone back on the phone. Consequently it never happened most of the time. It’s hard to admit that but it’s true. Prayer takes such energy and time that sometimes it’s definitely not the easiest thing to do, but it is or should be PRIORITY!!! Why, why, why are these things so difficult for me to accept or do???
Ok, so from this point on we WILL have family prayer in our home….and it will be more then puncuation to our day…..it will be priority and nothing…tv, phone, guests in the home..will be more important. If Eddie and I believe in prayer and its incredible power then why in the world are we not putting it into action in our family???? Do we not realize how much is at stake?!??
So…Lord, please help us to make prayer the number one priority in our home and family!! I truly belive You are going to begin to do incredible things in and through us if we show You in word and action that You come first in our lives in EVERY aspect!!! Forgive us for taking so long to put this into action! And thank you for continuing to work on us….and never losing patience!
Can I just say that I’m getting to the point that I’m done??? I’m warning you….this post is a little different from usual. Today’s been tough, and honestly I’m just kind of ill at God because I’m not understanding what He keeps doing. On the other side of it though I feel bad at being upset at God after He miraculously has brought me through brain surgery and so much else!
One of our kids is running a very high temperature…it started yesterday afternoon and has continued on through out today. You can tell that he feels pretty bad….poor guy. The doctor told us that after checking everything else it looks like it is just something viral and will have to run its course. He also said that we need to cancel our plans for the next few days. I expected that but here’s my big problem with this….tomorrow is mine and Eddie’s 5 year wedding anniversary. We have plans made for the next several days and then myself and the kids will stay in NC next week while Eddie comes back to work. I have been so looking forward to this for awhile now, because well…let’s just say I’m getting cabin fever in our house :) Plus…I would love to be able to hang out with my family next week, but most importantly I would love to be able to celebrate five years with my husband. Not only is one of our kids sick but it looks like my incision might be infected as well……we’re waiting to hear from the doctor on that today.
I just feel that Satan is continuing to attack us in so many ways…big and small…and it’s not let up in months! I’m so ready for a little break! Honestly just about every week there is something different that happens on top of us trying to handle recovery with me and childcare for the kids……
BUT…when I stop to really think about things I can see why Satan is fighting so hard. First of all, adoption. I know without a doubt that the last thing Satan wants is for us to adopt this little boy, but Eddie and I know without a doubt that that is truly God’s plan. Second of all, Eddie and I are involved in a church where there is a core group of people that have a heart and passion to see people come to Christ, and as the Lord’s leading we are preparing to take big steps to see that happen….that’s what church is supposed to be about…meeting people, building relationships, and showing them Christ! Why aren’t more churches making this a priority when that’s what church is all about?!??! Third of all, God’s put something on my heart in such a huge way…..it’s been something that I’ve thought about for almost five years now, and in the last two months I feel that God is telling me this is the time for it to happen. I can honestly say it’s not my dream…in fact, it pretty much terrifies me and excites me all at the same time. I’ve told God though that I will do whatever He asks, and that always means stepping out of the comfort zone and embracing His dreams….so that’s what I’m going to do. I guess there’s three big reasons why Satan is just having a field day with us right now. I’m sure that many of you reading this right now could list tons of ways that Satan is fighting your own family so hard. Wow….how great it is though when we think about how we serve the most powerful God in existence! He’s The Resurrection and The Life…Alpha and Omega…..Messiah……The Beloved….The Almighty……I Am…..King of Kings and Lord of Lords…..Prince of Peace…….Immanuel….Redeemer……Protector…….The Way, The Truth, and The Life….Jesus Christ…
I look at all that and wonder why am I even worried? I serve Jesus Christ who gave His life for me……the only thing I should be focused on is how to get closer with Him. He promises that everything else will fall into place if He is our first and primary focus. Ok…so I’m sorry that you had to read all that just for me to figure out that everything is going to be ok, and God wins in the end! We already have the victory….I guess it’s about time I start claiming it!