We have direction!
My neurosurgeon called yesterday and told me my test results. He agreed…it is operable! PTL! But..he said he wasn’t my man for the job. It’s been decided that my aneurysm is a pretty typical run-of-the-mill aneurysm…that’s the great news. BUT…they have found that the blood artery that the aneurysm is attached to is abnormal and will need to be fixed as well. I’ve been referred to a doctor in Atlanta who specializes in blood vessel and aneurysm surgery…..we are having an appt with him ASAP and then Eddie and I will decide whether to go with him or pursue one other avenue that is opened to us. Honestly it’s God’s decision…I believe God is big enough to lead me to the right doctor. So far he’s been faithful to close the door on a few doctors….He knows exactly where He wants me, and I’m resting in that fact. I do hope we are nearing the end….I feel like we’ve been traveling this road for so long although it’s only been since the 28th of March…..please pray that from this point on everything will move VERY quickly! I’ve had a few physical things happen lately that have been very unsettling….it’s making us all the more ready to have everything fixed!
As far as how we’re dealing with this…well…let’s just say that Eddie and I made the HUGE mistake of going to see the Bucket List last night. We’ve been wanting to see it for a few months now but just hadn’t had the chance. I didn’t even stop to think that the movie might hit a little too close too home for me at this point…if you have not seen the movie..it involves two characters who at different points in the movie have to have their heads shaved and then proceed into brain surgery. These characters decide that before they meet the inevitable death they are going to make a list of things they want to accomplish and complete the list as a team. Although like I said before I truly believe God is going to heal me, I still felt that reality crashed down last night. Especially during the part of the movie where they are wheeling away a man to surgery and his wife is holding his hand until the last moment when they whisk him through the double doors. For some reason that was the part where I kind of lost it…and cried…a lot. I think it was good for me though…yes I’m scared….more as the inevitable surgery gets closer and closer…but I still have a peace that it will all come out ok. How do you have peace and still be scared at the same time? I’m not sure, but that’s where Eddie and I are. Just continue to pray that we will trust God 100% in this and remember that we rest in the palm of His hand. What an incredible help that is through this storm. Love all you guys…thanks for your continued prayers.
April 18th, 2008 at 10:47 am
PRAISE HIM!!! I am so glad to hear this news.
April 18th, 2008 at 2:40 pm
i am so glad to hear that this can be fixed… i have been checking your blog a few times a day waiting to hear:) i will be praying about the right doctor and that this will be over as quickly as possible. hang in there!
April 18th, 2008 at 2:44 pm
Martha Marie, first let me say thank you for updating us as much as possible. I think about and pray for you several times a day and it is good to come here and see any updates. Two of my favorite verses are Nahum 1:7 - “The Lord is good, a stronghold in a day of trouble; he protects those who take refuge in him.” and Proverbs 3:5,6 - “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy path.” I have been at the point of having peace, but being scared at the same time. It doesn’t make much since, but it is possible to feel both at the same time. God will get you through this and you will be stronger because of it. He will find a way for you to be able to use this experience to help someone else someday. Just keep resting in His arms and know that alot of people care about you and will continue to pray for your healing! We love you, Eddie, and Selah!
April 18th, 2008 at 2:51 pm
PRAISE THE LORD!! This is good news. We will continue to lift you and Eddie up in our prayers. God is using you even in this difficult time. You are an inspiration to all who know you. God is sufficient and we are in His hands. Thank you for being the Godly woman that God so desires you to be and sharing your faith in the midst of uncertainty. God is faithful to guide, direct, and sustain! Keep the faith! We remain with you . . .
In His Grip,
Greg and Julie Alexander and Family
April 18th, 2008 at 6:14 pm
We are reading your blog every day and praying. We praise God that the docs say it is operable. You are two great people. We love you and are strengthened as we see how God is working and helping you in the most difficult trial.
Roger and Brenda
April 19th, 2008 at 1:32 pm
Girl, we have been praying for you and checking the website daily! I am so glad that you have been given direction. Keep the faith and celebrate the praises! We love ya’ll!
April 20th, 2008 at 1:49 pm
I am so happy to hear that it is operable. Thanks for taking time out of your busy life to keep us updated. It makes me feel like I am right there beside you step-by-step. I will continue to pray and have faith. (I, however, will not go see Bucketlist yet.) It is an amazing gift to have peace. It saddens me to think of all those that go through these same storms without that knowledge that God is in control - even when we can’t see the road in front of us. Hold tight to the knowledge that you and Eddie are not alone. You have an amazing God and lots of friends. Love you.