Eddie and Martha Marie Smith

I’m doing a lot better physically.  Yes there is still soreness and it will be awhile before I have the energy  I used to have, but after two surgeries in the past three months, I feel much better than I ever anticipated I would….God is truly good!  

It’s so interetsing to me that during the hard times in life we learn the most about ourselves and Christ….at least in my opinion.  I’ve learned that I’m incredibly selfish in so many ways…..I’ve learned that I take countless things for granted…..I’ve learned that God speaks to me all the time, but there are so many times I haven’t been listening.  Concerning Christ I’ve learned that it’s all about Him and will always be all about Him…..I’ve learned that He’s blessed me beyond measure and He hasn’t kept a record of just how many of His blessings I’ve taken for granted because of His amazing forgiveness……the biggest thing I’ve learned is that God takes us through hard times because He loves us and He will do whatever He needs to do in order for us as His children to understand that.   Let’s just say that this has been a very educational few months

I say all this to say that I want to be a God pleaser.  I want to get to the point that I do not fear what people think of me….my biggest concern needs to be what my Heavenly Father thinks of me.  I watched “Amazing Grace” tonight, and it showed me yet again what Christ will do through someone that will give their all to Him and hold nothing back, no matter what people may think.  After the movie I stopped and thought how incredibly different our world would be if we as God’s children would completely surrender to Him and allow Him to use us however He chooses not allowing anything to hold us back no matter what!  Honestly I’ve somewhat had the attitude before that no matter what I do, our world is not going to get better…just worse.  Anything I do won’t really make a difference, right?  I’m pretty ashamed that I’ve had that attitude….God hasn’t given up on our world…..He proved that to us when He sent His only Son to die on a cross for us…you and me.  So why do so many seem to live like they have a similar attitude as mine has been?

I want to make a difference….how?  Well that is up to God.  My decision is deciding that however, whenever, whatever, and wherever is completely His decision.  The reason I belive I was born was to praise God…and the main way I can praise my Jesus is with my life.  It’s about time I start truly living that way!

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