Eddie and Martha Marie Smith

Ok so it’s been awhile since I’ve written…..life has begun to look somewhat normal again and I can not tell you what a blessing that has been!  I feel like a miracle because there are several days…in a row….when I feel full of energy and I don’t have a single pain anywhere!  Keep in mind that it’s only been 12 weeks since I had the brain surgery and 4 weeks since the gallbladder surgery….can we say miraculous?!?!?  God is amazing! 

This past season of our lives has been tough…I mean honestly it is not the most fun to have brain surgery, BUT I have to say that Eddie and I have been blessed to go through it….what an awesome opportunity…I realize some of you at this point may be thinking that the medications from the surgery might still be affecting me since I’m saying this stuff but I truly mean it!  I have learned things, understood things, that I never would have learned or understood unless going through something like this.  I think the main reason Eddie and I went through this is because God loves me.  I believe that with all my heart….God takes us through hard difficult times because He loves us.  He loves us so much that He will put us in impossible situations because He wants us to learn, see, understand more of Him….because He knows the more of Him we see and understand the better our lives will be, the better people we will be, the better future we will have…..the more we will be able to do for His kingdom. 

There were a few songs that I listened to very often during this past season that really helped and encouraged me.  One of them was In Christ Alone, but my all-time favorite was by Mandisa and is called “God Speaking.”  The message of the song is that God will use or do anything to not only get our attention but to show us just how much He loves us…..it was the song I continuously played on my ipod the morning I was walking into the hopsital for the brain surgery.  It gave me such a peace because I felt God’s message loud and clear:  “Martha Marie I love you.  I’m taking you through this for a reason.  Trust me….I will never let go of you.  I will always be with you no matter what!”

We will always face difficult times on this Earth.  There is no question about it.   When you’re going through those tough times it is sometimes so hard to hold on to hope and faith that everything is going to be ok.  The verse that was such a comfort but also the absolute toughest for me was Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths.”  It was so hard for me to “trust Him with all my heart”  in fact, I couldn’t do it on my own.  I prayed that God would give me that trust in Him.   And He did.  Nothing is impossible with Him.  Nothing.  So as Satan continues to try to discourage, and steal, kill, and destroy our hopes, and dreams, our joy…remember that no matter what we can trust God with all things.  No matter the situation God can take care of it….we just have to let Him. 

Lord, thank you with all my heart.  I get to get up every morning and enjoy my family, my friends, a brand new day, a new adventure.  All because of you.  I love you so much.  Thank you for working a miracle in my life.   I will be eternally grateful.

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